Something is not right



Theres a boy with pancreatic mass in my ward.. who has multiple other issues going on because of the tumour.. a most pleasant cooperative boy … I look at him as one of those rare interesting cases. .. he listens to us unflinching as we discuss him standing overhead ..like hes a specimen and cant hear us.. then I click his pictures from different angles.. he and his parents listen silently when I tell them he has a tumor and will need surgery… I of course continue our routine after we reveal this devastating news to the family, not sparing an extra thought for him

Nonetheless, he greets me with a smile every day .. waiting for me to tell him whats next
I find out that the tumor looks malignant … but only my curiosity is piqued.. not my sympathy … I read some more about the case preparing to write it up as soon as I get a chance

Much later at night the childs accepting smiling face and his parents expressions – hope tinged with fear .. come to my mind … and I feel like crying .. not just for the boy but for my sense of humanity which is amiss.

This profession has made me cold. 

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