Surya Arghya

 

I had the most incredible experience at the beach at Mandvi, Kutchh

We were alone on the vast private beach early morning, waiting for the sun to make an appearance. Aekansh was frolicking and Ajeet was walking with me and we clicked pictures taking advantage of the brilliant dawn.

We offered our prayers to the rising sun and then Ajeet said we should go back to our room to get ready, but I found myself rooted to the spot, as both of them moved away.

I had fallen into a trance as the sun came up and the sea shimmered with its golden blaze, and there was a strange churning inside of me .. I was dissolving and was surrendering to the moment. My eyes were transfixed on the shimmering light, could not tear my eyes away, hardy blinking , All I could hear was the crashing of the waves... My mind was devoid of thoughts and it was a moment of pure awareness.

It just brought me to my knees, tears streaming down my cheeks.

What I felt was one of those rare moments when life touches you directly without words, without effort...

That stillness where one cannot move, the tears that come without sadness, the calm and the intensity together

The heart was opening up like a flower and the mind became quiet on its own.

The sun, the sea, the sky… they didn’t feel separate from me because in that moment, nothing was separate.

That’s why it felt so sacred and so real

The stillness, the tears, the sobbing and the calm all at once

Happens when the sense of ‘I’ softens and awareness opens without effort...

I have had such experiences before but never in the company of my family.

I kneeled there in meditation , my eyes closed and the suns energy piercing me, warming me , it was a glorious levitating feeling

The reverie broke when my body convulsed with sobs as I lay down flat on the wet sand, my hands stretched out folded in front of me, I was a mere devotee to the power and magnificence of the Sun’s rays uniting with the tumult of the waves ..I was so incredibly calm and yet I was sobbing .. this is what ecstacy feels like .. the ecstacy of experiencing unadulterated life in its true vastness and splendour.

Whenever life feels heavy, now I know what it feels like to rest in that vastness because it wasn’t outside me.

Later , reflecting, I realized why we worship the sun .. it is an instinctive process and cannot be taught or forced .. I am ever so grateful to be able to experience the infinite energy of the sun, the sky and sea in unison, coursing through my being, albeit in rare moments like these. 

Words feel inadequate...an though I try to explain it in words , I also know that these  are best left unsaid and unexplained .. just a small treasure in a nook of my heart 

I will hold on to this and reminisce about this -in all those moments when I need my fire to burn a little brighter.